I STOOD ON YOUR WORD AND WATCHED IT COME TO PAST…
SUFFERING IS ONLY TEMPORARY AND THE PAIN IT TOO SHALL PASS.
I’M ROOTED AND GROUNDED IN A LOVE THAT WILL NOT FAIL,
I’M LEANING ON A ROCK WHERE RIVERS BREAK AND TRAIL.
WASHED IN THE FLOOD ARE MY SORROWS AND SHAME,
SUNSHINE IS BREAKING AND HEALING COMES TO REPLACE PAIN.
I’M NOT MY OWN, AND FOR THAT I AM GLAD….
HOW DEEP ARE THE WOUNDS OF A SOUL THAT IS MAD.
I’M RELEASING MY ANGER AND I HAND IT TO YOU.
REPLACE IT WITH PEACE, AND THROW IN SOME GRACE TOO…
LORD, I CANNOT, BUT ONLY WITH YOU, LET GO OF THE PAST,
SO YOUR LOVE CAN SHINE THROUGH.
I’M IN NEED OF A MIRACLE THAT COMES ONLY FROM YOU.
RESTORE MY CHILDREN OF THE YEARS THEY WERE DUE.
PLANT IN THEIR HEARTS YOUR GUIDANCE AND LOVE
REDEEM THEM OF SINS LEARNED FROM MY WRONGS.
WASH THEM IN YOUR BLOOD, FROM THEIR HEAD TO THEIR TOES.
GIVE THEM YOUR SPIRIT, TO FIGHT OFF ALL EVIL FOES.
BREAK FROM THEIR LIVES THIS CYCLE OF ABUSE.
CLEANSE FROM THEIR GENES ANY CURSE TO EVER USE.
TEACH THEM TO FIGHT FOR ONLY WHATS TRUE,
RENEW THEIR MINDS WITH YOUR WORDS OF TRUTH.
GRANT THEM A MOTHER, WHO POURS OUT YOUR GRACE,
EVEN WHEN THEIR GUILTY OF THE SMALLEST OF MISTAKES.
I CRY OUT FOR YOUR LOVE, TO POUR OUT ONTO THEM,
RIVERS OF LIFE FROM THEIR MOTHER ONCE AGAIN.
TEACH ME AS I GO, THAT YOU ARE IN CONTROL.
IT IS NOT OF MY WILL, BUT OF YOUR WILL ALONE.
I’M THANKFUL FOR TRIALS THAT BRING ME BACK TO YOU.
HOLD ME AND CARRY ME WHEN LIFE SEEMS TO CRUDE.
INTO YOUR HANDS, I COMMIT MY WHOLE LIFE.
I GIVE YOU MY CHILDREN AND TODAY, I BECOME YOUR WIFE.
This poem was written when I took a stand against the demons of Abuse and Control in my mother. I knew this generational curse from my family could only be won by the Spirit of God. My mother had me committed by court order for a 96 hour hold. Because of my faith, she claimed I was on drugs and insane. My drug test was clean and my mental evaluation was stable. Many lives were saved during my 7 day stay.
Author, Kelly Egan….July of 2004
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