A few months ago, I hit rock bottom spiritually. I was sad and unmotivated. I felt like my life had no purpose. I felt like I was in a constant state of mourning. The only thing that kept me going was my beautiful son. After noticing the state I was in, my fiancé reminded me of all the dreams I used to share with him and encouraged me to start praying and reading again like I used to. He was right. I had stopped praying and talking to God on a daily basis. I had drifted so far away. I was no longer connected to my source. Have you ever tried to play it off like you’re having a lot of fun, but deep down inside you’re absolutely miserable? That’s how I felt separated from God.
I took my fiance’s advice and started getting up early to read my Bible and talk to God. Initially, I felt funny. I felt like I was trying to make amends with someone that I dissed who did nothing wrong to me. I humbled myself and asked God to forgive me and I also asked Him to renew His spirit within me. I also let Him know that I didn’t want any material blessings—just wanted more of Him. I simply wanted to be in His presence and enjoy Him like I used to. I surrendered my will, too. I just got to a place where I didn’t want to run away from His will for my life anymore. Each day, I continued seeking God and each day I found myself getting closer to Him. He began revealing Himself to me in various ways.
I started trusting God more and really taking Him at His word. Before long, I felt myself growing stronger spiritually and others took notice, too. I was led to write down my goals and put them before God so He could bless them. Before long, all of these great things that I’ve been longing for started happening to me. I was one of sixty young women of African descent whose essay was selected for inclusion in “Souls of My Young Sisters” book from Kensington Press that will be released in June of 2010. Please note that this book is expected to hit the New York Times Bestseller list! Because of my involvement with the project, doors of opportunity have opened for me as well. I was asked to work as the liaison between Souls of My Young Sisters and FAWN, Mary J. Blige and Steve Stoute’s foundation in preparation for Oprah’s Live Your Best Life walk on May 9, 2010. I was also asked to be the spokesperson for Natural Organized Women Sorority(NOW), Inc. as well as the regional director for NOW’s scholarship pageant initiative.
I’m so glad that God saw the best in me when I didn’t see the best in myself. I’m so glad He didn’t give up on me. I’m so glad He’s enabling me to live out my dreams and bring them to past. I’m so glad that I surrendered to His will and let Him use me as a vessel to create this blog you are reading right now. Yes, my friends, this blog started out as an idea God planted in my heart that I continued to develop prayerfully. I’m so proud of it because it’s all for His glory.
Have you fallen away from God? Are you longing to reconnect with Him? My advice is simple. Humble yourself, pray, and ask God to forgive you and renew His spirit within you. Draw closer to Him by seeking His face on a daily basis and reading His word. I also encourage you to purchase Marvin Sapp’s latest cd—“Here I am.” This cd helped me alot.
Do you have any advice or testimonies to share about what God has done in your life? If so, please share with the readers so we can all be blessed from your testimony.
P.S. Remember, everything has beauty—including YOU. It just takes a true D.I.V.A to see it!
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